Thursday, April 19, 2012

The Best for Us

Decision has been made and I will let it flow, flow like water~

Everything in the past is now just a sweet memory, a memory which indeed I'll never ever forget!! I'll let the girl I've been chasing for years go, and fall to other man's hand. Well, it hurts but that's what we know as LOVE

I know it hurts, it is a pain to me to lose a girl I loved. But what can I do?? Forcing her to be in my side again? Oh No!! I'm sorry, I can't do that!! I'm not a type of man like that haha.

In love, every single man or woman must have ever experienced "losing someone". Don't worry! If you really love that girl/boy, you should be able to let him/her go, or maybe no. Maybe I am acting like a stupid one who Just let my sweetheart go. Maybe it could be the best for you and yours. Yet I am still wondering, I am doing it right? But now, I am going just to let her go, let her be in other man's arm because I believe that she'll surely be much happier with him. That's her choice.

She's the first girl that I am really serious with and it pains me when she decided to leave me. It hurts, a lot. But I have already known that long-distance relationship really won't work. She's going to Jakarta to pursue her study in accounting and I am in Seattle. Or perhaps? This is the problem? Cause I know she gets jealous very easily.

But I'm not giving up on girls!! I won't and I'll find another one. who knows I can find one who is much better than her ;) Only, I am not really interested in it now. Let the scarce on this heart fly away first, let me focus my study first, then I'll find another better woman :)

Thank you Michele!! I hope all the best for you and Always be happy. I'll always support you in every choice you make cause you deserve to be happy :)


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

. . . . . . . . .

I know that I am very obstinate, just too difficult for me to change my mind in 'this' stuff. I just don't want it ends now... I try to let go, but it's actually easier said than done. I try to calm myself, but it's just getting worse and worse. I try to not to think that puzzling problem, but I can't! 
Ohhh, I am so livid, so depressed...

What's going to be the best solution?? I will take whatever I have decided. But surely I just don't want to ............



Friday, April 13, 2012

High School's Final Chapter


Last Wednesday was actually my last day of school (I AM GRADUATING baby!in Sutomo I and I will have to prepare the battle against National Examination. Desperately saying, I am not ready!! :(

Well, on that last day of school, I took quite a lot of pictures with my friends. Don't get me wrong! I am not one narcissistic student haha. I am just not used to taking pictures with my friends, but if I didn't do it, I will probably be regretting for losing some precious moments on that day :) 

Here are some pictures I took that day :

Michelle, I could say she's my ex
But why am I still so attached with you? I wonder.

And here to my precious and pretty best friends,
Cynthia, Linda, Monica, Jessica Justine (Jeje) and Jessica (jeje)

AH! I messed up! I just realized that I did not have a picture of my Kelvin and Jessica.
Ah Yes! Another Jessica ;)

The H.O.T w/ first and second year form teacher

With Ross and Tjoriman, Andy, Lie Lie, Rudi (or Rudy?) and Tjiek Kie (did I spell correctly?)

With my NR partner, Claristy

And with friends and classmates (and ex-classmates)


Thanks for being such good friends to me everyone! :)


Friends from SD (primary)
Oh! I see Michele! and Vio ;*


AND say hello to JONSHON-ers

I see a happy little red riding family

Jessica: Hey Sil, you know what?
Silviana: Know what?
Jessica: I AM H.O.T
Silviana: (starring at jeje)
It's a lame joke je hahaha..

I don't like repeating but, well, Imma say it again: Thanks for being such great friends to me! I really appreciate for maintaining this friendship till this moment. I just wanna say I am nothing without you. Ah! I am just exaggerating but seriously, you guys are very important to me :)

To my preciously beautiful friends and my Kelvin, thanks so much for being so reliable. You guys are always there for me. And to all of my friends, thanks for always helping me out when I was in trouble, was desperate and when I did something wrong, and more importantly, thanks for trusting me to be your class treasurer for two academic years (to H.O.T) and your class monitor for, okay, hm... one and a half academic year (to teman SD)

And, gweenkent will soon see you in another post. Have a great day :)


Friday, April 06, 2012

In A Little While...


Hey H.O.Ts !! Together we all have been spending our precious time in high school for three years. This 2012 year will be our last year to wear gray-colored uniform, the year when XII SCIENCE 03 academic year of 2011/2012 ends.

Sad :'( ?? OF COURSE! ; Happy ?? I can say it's also a yes because I can leave those not-relating-to-art subjects, HOORAAYY!! ; mixed feelings. But anyway, do you think time has flown very fast, maybe too fast or it's just my thought??

But let me begin my writing by expressing my greatest gratitude to all of my friends who have trusted me as a Treasurer of H.O.T. I feel very honored to take that position in the class for two periods of study. You all have been giving me chance to build my trustworthy character, I really thank you very much.

But, have I ever done something wrong to you guys?? Have I ever made mistakes to you? Have I ever said something that hurt your feelings very much friends?? Have I?? I can say nothing but sorry, very deeply sorry, if I have done so.

In a little while, ALL of us will graduate. Only three days left, wasn't it?? So we are going to have tomorrow Saturday, next Monday and Tuesday :O Should spend this 3 days wisely and after that, we will have to prepare for the UN (National Examination). UN is coming -_________-" and I have prepared nothing, oh uh!!.  
But I hope we all do well in UN!! Hope for the best!!

In a little while, we all will be walking in our own paths. Some will pursue their study in Singapore, Malaysia; some remains in Indonesia but in different states, while the others choose Australia, Europe and even further, America for their university study.

But wherever you are, you guys and I should keep in touch :) I'm serious!! And finally, I want to thank you for being my friends, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

I am so glad to know you all and I hope for the best in our next study :)

May all creatures be blessed and be happy.

ps: Stay Healthy and Good!!